It occurred to me this weekend that I haven’t been on social media in a few weeks and I haven’t updated my web site either. No doubt I’ve been busy- surgery, recovery, climbing, conference in Vegas, hiking in Death Valley and Red Rocks Canyon, work all week then resuming chemotherapy last week…things get busy. Truth is I found myself in a position that I needed to take a step back and re-evaluate my goals with this blog and social media.
Yes, I knowingly put myself in the position to be publicly open about lung cancer however I did not realize the attention this “story” would attract and admittedly I wasn’t prepared for the attention. It has occurred to me that I have become the “story” when my intention was for lung cancer to be the story; I simply wanted to be the messenger. As it turns out I’ve found you cannot separate the two- I am the story, or the main character in the story as well as the messenger. I am extremely happy with all the media attention that my story has received and for those who wrote the articles and conducted the interviews however it is unsettling to see in print the words “terminal” and “dying” referring to you. I had to take a step back and re-evaluate how I want my message portrayed.
Are the words “non-curable” and “terminal” accurate? Unfortunately as it stands now, yes- treatment is limited BUT this is not MY message. The message is not one of despair or sadness but one of hope, strength, and determination. I have multiple interviews scheduled in the next weeks and I will go back to telling my story- a story of hope, family, the love of the outdoors and a story not of one person struggling with lung cancer but a community struggling with lung cancer.